Remember me?!?

Hey everyone...it's Dave. I haven't been here in SOOOOOOOOO long. I have been preoccupied with other crap and not enough on my blog. I actually have a moment to write in here. Since I last wrote, I have finished my fourth step, and am currently working on my eighth. Once that is done, then I will do my ninth and practice my 10th-12th daily. Then after a year, i will be ready for sponsorship. Dating...OMG...I have been dating all of Austin. Just kidding. I have been dating several boys and some have been bad, but other have either become friends or fun-buddies, or both. there is a certain man that I'm a little obsessed with. And guess what...he's MEXICAN. How odd is that for me. I think that's what makes him more attractive and exotic to me. He's different and not what I would usually go for. Plus, he's taunting me, teasing me and I keep avoiding him. Not intentionally, but because I think we've created these expectations that when it happens, I'm gonna fail. I just need to be with him and get it over with. Oh well. He has made it more than evident that he wants to play, but I want him to be mine. I just need to understand that I need to earn that from him. If it happens...AAAARRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! If not, I'm not gonna die. In the meantime, I have started seeing this wonderful kid that thinks I hung the moon. Unfortunately, I have noticed more and more ways that we are different. It's only been a week...am I retarded? We're 9 years apart and I'm not comfortable with that. There are more differences popping up, but I need to end it soon before he gets more emotionally involved than he already is. I like him, but I'm gonna have to force myself to love him. I need that to just happen. Oh well, that's enough for now. Short bursts. I promise to try and visit a little more often. See you next time. DAVE PS...It's over...it's finally over and a chapter in my life has closed. More later.